Happy alentine's Day ~

Happy alentine's Day ~ Missing a V cause I obviously didnt got any yesterday :( Oh well, At least i spent my day contended playing video games and sleeping in. Argh, In a really spiteful mode now ~_~ Exams and shit pilling up and i'm slowly getting strangled to death by it D: Yet the only thing in my brain's Caramell-Dansen = = Reminiscing the past and seeing that everyone that I left in the past mostly moved on and found someone better. Can't help to doubt if i'm really fated to always be left behind ._. Welp, back to my attention-hungry notes :(

True Blue

So many thoughts flowing through recently, Kinda having an unreciprocated, one sided obsession for you. Valentines' coming in just two days and I haven't even thought of anything to do for / with you, not like you've no plans for yourself anyway. Busy as a bee and more popz than popular 'hur hur' Hearing your plans to go out with yet another guy again really rends a huge hole in my half twisted half ripped beyond repair heart. When am i gonna grow up and stop with this pointless obsessions. You're everything that I hope for yet have everything that I don't, Maybe it's this Irony that's pulling me deeper and deeper towards you. Towards the center of this pointless Obsession for you. Was really happy that you're willing to Cut down on clubbing and drinking and even smoking. Really proud of you if you can finally make this step forward. Then again, countless doubts within me arise upon hearing those words; how long can you last? Or a better question would be; how long can I?