So much homework, so damn lazy. HAHA rather ironic that i have the time to post and no time to do my homework. LOL. *sigh* hope you people stop thinking that me and her are a couple please. I'm not ready for a relationship now, and besides, she's just a good friend and i plan for it to maintain that way. I don't know you people are envious, trying to poke fun or simply have nothing better to do but please STALPH.

Seeing your pain, wanting to share your burden. reminiscing of the past.

I admit i'm still rather addicted to you, even though i thought i that i would move on like i always would. I just realised that i subconsciencously stopped by your blog everytime i had a chance to. Every single time when i chance upon your recorded message, i would inevitably shed a tear upon hearing your voice. I'm constantly on the verge of trying to talk to you again, but i know there's no room for me anymore. It's just not possible anymore. My impression have been tainted that when ever i thought of you, pain and disgust will fill me. Well, ironic huh. Guess that's one of the side effects of vinegar. Especially over something like a creep.

Hate me for all you want, i don't wanna care anymore. And here's to you people out there that think you're better cuz you're older : _|_. Being older doesn't mean you get all the girls... get all the attention... get everything. Start acting your age please.

So Many Friends Soo little time D: *sigh*

I can feel the heat once again D: Projects, Exams, Friendships and Relationships are all being stretched to the limit. And i'm just to lazy to do anything about it :/ Kudos to my Projectmates where i leave most of the stuff to, My sincerest apologies to those friends that i've neglected.

*sigh* everyday we're getting closer and closer, But i don't wanna ruin it all by taking the wrong step. So i'm just gonna maintain this until i'm 100% sure that it right. I don't want it to end badly, like all your ''Predecessors''

Happy birthday Mun Yong :> Woah we've known each other for ... 10 years ?! Well, suddenly got the urge to give credit to those bros that i've known for a while, so here it goes :
Gladwin : for constantly staying by my side and  faithfully supporting me all the while despite all the many differences we had.
Raphael : for accompanying me through my entire sec 3 and 4 life and being someone that i can rely on.
Timothy : for being a despite 'part-time' but awesome friend whom i can confide in.
Boon Khong : Woah God knows how long it's been since i last typed your name, though we've taken extremely different paths now, undeninably you've been a irreplaceable part of my life.
Last but not least, The ''newcomers''
Guo Qian : Well, i'm rather please with your somewhat fun filled companionship and i'm starting to trust you more and more. I've only recently ( and unknowingly ) started to get closer to you after we got into NP and i'm beginning to see you as another part of my ''bro'' family. Welcome to the group bro !
Jana : Hmmm a really interesting person over all and despite our major differences in characters and personalities, we could really connect on another whole new level. Hope to know you better !
Xin Kai : Woah, this is the first week i've known you as my coursemate and it feels like i've known you for a while. Thanks for constantly helping me whenever i'm in a pinch and thanks for your constant companionship.

Argh homework piling up but i'm soo lazy to move my ass D: *sigh* seems like i'm totally not ready for any relationship or anything like that right now so... Gonna just wait i guess ._. Let time be the tester (:

2 Different Girls, 2 Similar Heart-Breaks 2 Identical Heart-Throb

Yes Yes, i know today is an important day. Yes, i know i'm being a douche bag by purposely not doing or saying anything. Yesterday at exactly 11.59 pm. I was held in place by two opposing forces. To be or not to be . You can Call me a liar, call this a lame excuse for ''forgetting''. Up to you. Though i suppose in the end, it should be a ''to be'' i spent the entire day pondering about this question. Well, here it goes : Happy Birthday, and also the 3rd-month anniversary of our chance meeting. Everything is just so severely broken on both sides now that it'll take much more than another miracle to fix this. I suppose even being friends is rather difficult now. Well, my next year's birthday will be spent with you, i really hope that when that time comes, we'll both be ready. Though i suppose you could end it all with a single sentence : ''I've watched one already.'' Argh, well, Enjoy your time with him and don't forget me yeah? You'll always remain in my heart and mind as Miss Holiday Romance :)

*Sigh* seeing you on the bus is like falling back in love with you and getting hurt all over once again. Upon Seeing your silhouette, my heart's being thorn into a million pieces. I feel the same dread surging  through my veins again. NO WAY i'm gonna let that happen again. So i just pop my headset on being thankful that my music's gonna go through this with me. Alas, the moment you walked pass me, my phone's battery died out. i was caught between ignoring you and talking to you. But i know that it's already too late. So i managed a weak smile and continue pretending that you weren't there anymore. I'm really sorry for being such a Arsehole but i just couldn't stand it anymore...

ARGH. So many questions so little time, so lack of answers. Just as i was feeling rather settled down and could see the Pure white clean slate cover my past regrets and mistakes, my entire world was shaken upside down and the Pure whiteness cloud my vision like a snow-globe. So sorry, i don't have the answers you seek right now. Just a little more. Just let me rest for a little more..

PS : I wanted to be the first, but i knew that it wasn't possible as there's people much more important to you than me so i'll try to be the last. Hope you don't blame me for it.