2 Different Girls, 2 Similar Heart-Breaks 2 Identical Heart-Throb

Yes Yes, i know today is an important day. Yes, i know i'm being a douche bag by purposely not doing or saying anything. Yesterday at exactly 11.59 pm. I was held in place by two opposing forces. To be or not to be . You can Call me a liar, call this a lame excuse for ''forgetting''. Up to you. Though i suppose in the end, it should be a ''to be'' i spent the entire day pondering about this question. Well, here it goes : Happy Birthday, and also the 3rd-month anniversary of our chance meeting. Everything is just so severely broken on both sides now that it'll take much more than another miracle to fix this. I suppose even being friends is rather difficult now. Well, my next year's birthday will be spent with you, i really hope that when that time comes, we'll both be ready. Though i suppose you could end it all with a single sentence : ''I've watched one already.'' Argh, well, Enjoy your time with him and don't forget me yeah? You'll always remain in my heart and mind as Miss Holiday Romance :)

*Sigh* seeing you on the bus is like falling back in love with you and getting hurt all over once again. Upon Seeing your silhouette, my heart's being thorn into a million pieces. I feel the same dread surging  through my veins again. NO WAY i'm gonna let that happen again. So i just pop my headset on being thankful that my music's gonna go through this with me. Alas, the moment you walked pass me, my phone's battery died out. i was caught between ignoring you and talking to you. But i know that it's already too late. So i managed a weak smile and continue pretending that you weren't there anymore. I'm really sorry for being such a Arsehole but i just couldn't stand it anymore...

ARGH. So many questions so little time, so lack of answers. Just as i was feeling rather settled down and could see the Pure white clean slate cover my past regrets and mistakes, my entire world was shaken upside down and the Pure whiteness cloud my vision like a snow-globe. So sorry, i don't have the answers you seek right now. Just a little more. Just let me rest for a little more..

PS : I wanted to be the first, but i knew that it wasn't possible as there's people much more important to you than me so i'll try to be the last. Hope you don't blame me for it.