Stalker much D:

Well, internship's been a real bore. Not to mention the tiring mess I am when i get home as i sink into pure bliss into my comfy bed never wanting to wake again. Met this really cute and cool chick at work yesterday. But through some searching, found out that she's totally outta my league :( She's almost exactly opposite. But hey, opposites attract right?

Happy alentine's Day ~

Happy alentine's Day ~ Missing a V cause I obviously didnt got any yesterday :( Oh well, At least i spent my day contended playing video games and sleeping in. Argh, In a really spiteful mode now ~_~ Exams and shit pilling up and i'm slowly getting strangled to death by it D: Yet the only thing in my brain's Caramell-Dansen = = Reminiscing the past and seeing that everyone that I left in the past mostly moved on and found someone better. Can't help to doubt if i'm really fated to always be left behind ._. Welp, back to my attention-hungry notes :(

True Blue

So many thoughts flowing through recently, Kinda having an unreciprocated, one sided obsession for you. Valentines' coming in just two days and I haven't even thought of anything to do for / with you, not like you've no plans for yourself anyway. Busy as a bee and more popz than popular 'hur hur' Hearing your plans to go out with yet another guy again really rends a huge hole in my half twisted half ripped beyond repair heart. When am i gonna grow up and stop with this pointless obsessions. You're everything that I hope for yet have everything that I don't, Maybe it's this Irony that's pulling me deeper and deeper towards you. Towards the center of this pointless Obsession for you. Was really happy that you're willing to Cut down on clubbing and drinking and even smoking. Really proud of you if you can finally make this step forward. Then again, countless doubts within me arise upon hearing those words; how long can you last? Or a better question would be; how long can I?

Doki Doki right in my kokoro

Well, apparently there's this ultimate wing bro that managed to snag me an opportunity to you know, take a step further. However, it is during this opportunity that I realized that actually we weren't as compatible as I thought we would be, getting together was already impossible let alone marriage. Though the first words from her mouth when we talked about marriage was, whose gonna get the kids after the divorce and also cold sentiments about my ignorance and immaturity, Though I did hear her mumble something about smiles or something. Welp, probably just another one of my wishful thinking :/ thought I gotta say, that actually made my heart race.

There she goes, There she goes again ~

Soo recently, there's this really special person. Someone that keeps weaving in and out of my life. Someone that we started off by going through the rocks. I kinda know that she's impossible, but I just cant shake the feeling that though we're mutually exclusive, it somehow seems pretty picture-able. Like it's closer to reality than dream. But as per usual, it's probably my desires and ego blurring the lines between reality and dream. She has exactly everything that I'm not looking for, but she's also the one that I seem to be receptive of bending or even breaking the Purity rule. She definitely has tongued someone before, anything more, well that's pretty much my limits i guess. Can't forget her cute laughter, our midnight-dawn conversations. Gonna be soo dead if she finds out, but it's this exciting, thrilling factor that keeps me going. She already has a crush already though and every single day seeing her devotion towards him is slowly crushing me. She is that one person I wouldn't have fell for but it's always the unseen threat that is the deadliest. Notice me, Senpai :3