SilverPrecision

Was nearly moved to tears as i read my ''soon-to-be-ex-colleague''s post on her lovely blog. Obviously i'm talking about you, my dearest flowervase (: Truth to be told, i'd rather explain it here through my awesome new wife than WA through my laggy pink phone x.x

 As i started conversing with you through unforgettable early morning chats (which results on multiple objections within my clan )  that would last for hours I started realising that a future with you in it is actually quite within my grasp and not just some holiday romance.
Well, At first i was seriously shocked that you actually feel secured with me and that you actually feel comfortable around me despite us meeting for a mere ten days.. then as we continued this path i could feel a mix of emotions behind that beautiful face of yours ; mostly made up of fear and infatuation. I kept thinking that the reason for your hesitation or your erratic bi-poalar reactions was that  i wasn't good enough or i wasn't giving enough effort. Day by Day i started trying to improve, to strive to be better. Yet with every advancement i had, you took a step back. Close friends adviced that you were just playing hard to get :x

As days went by, i was really in a dilemma as it seems like you're hot then you're cold and it caused my emotions to be jumbled up so badly that i was totally under-performing in matches until two of my best friends had a good talk with me and settled me down. At that time, i still was unsure and confused. I lay in my bed thinking for hours as my brain was overclocking and preventing sleep from reaching me. Everytime i close my eyes, you will always never fail to appear. At then i realised that i was totally head over heels for you and that i must not lose or forget you at all means.

I dreaded the next morning as i know that it would be a world's difference in the way i treat you and yet i was determinded to show that i wasn't severely affected by lastnight's conversation. Originally ignoring you seems to be the best option until i realised that the smile that would instantly brighten up any day wasn't there and a forced grimace took it's place. At that moment when we locked eyes, my heart skipped a beat and it's as if i could feel all your sadness pour into me. It was such a heart-rending moment that i almost broke down into tears. I made a vow at that instant that i would never let that kind of grimace appear on a face that i've came to love ...