Sometimes, i really wished there was a ''rewind'' button in life ...

Insecurity flooded me today. I woke up feeling extremely regretful and foolish. I loved you so much and missed you more. Why the hell do i have to put up all this drama when i realised that i lost? I guess i was just being a sore-Loser. The more i tried to change for the better, the more the drama drags on. I woke up today, Finally realising what i've been missing out. While i'm stuck in my own delusional world wallowing in self-despair, there's lots of memories to be made, bonds to be forged. Why am i such a God-damned sore-Loser that couldn't accept the fact that i failed (quite badly i might add) whereas others have succeed. I kept wondering if was i not good enough or did i simply take your acts of silence as attraction instead of pity? Gah, i don't wanna care about this anymore. My holiday ends in exactly 11 days and i'm not planning to let these 11 days go to waste. I'm gonna treat it as this is the last 11 days i have with you. I can safely say that i love you and i certainly do not want to lose you. I really can't believe that in my moment of weakness my 'twin' came out and wreak havoc upon my already messed up life. I can't believe i let my twin create a post with vile intentions of inflicting hurt on you. Though i gotta say every time i see another guy in your life the cage holding my twin would rattle. Well, there you have it, my reasons for my mood-swings. Yeah, Zavier go ahead and conjure up more excuses for yourself. GAH, I feel like there's a war going on inside me. uh-oh time to go swimming ~ Well, let me know if you wanna pause the ''one-year plan''. I don't blame you if you don't wanna, I can't stand myself most of the time too. I can imagining meeting myself and i bet i'll have an instant dislike towards me. I sorta figure out why it's kinda meaningless to blog out your life like this... You have multiple readers reading it. Well, for me i only have one faithful reader and i plan to keep the numbers this way. Have a goodnight and i'm looking forward to your reply / morning message tmr ~

PS : Mm, seems like you hate people younger than you, well, i feel you. but don't forget i'm mentally 21 >;)