Warning this following post could induce increased anger and/or flow of tears.

I knew you were trouble when you walked in ~

Well, it's quite true isn't it? You've caused so much and also meant as much. I can slowly feel myself losing grip on you.. and also the source of what made me alive. In just a mere few months i'll be back to the same old Zavier except with a few more cracks on my already damaged heart. But you? HAH, i bet you won't even remember me in 5 years. Well, at least not with the mount of guys flowing into your life. Call me possessive or jealous, I wouldn't even try to deny it. Yes, i AM jealous, and yes i am possessive, but i'm trying to change. Well, this certainly is a first for me, The incredibly egoistic Zavier is willing to change? wow. The incredibly Zavier is willing to change for a girl? WOW. That was the response i received when i met my primary school friends and they asked me why did i change so much. I once had this loooong talk with my bestie Gladwin. We were discussing the matter of your ''value''. I said that your value is priceless. His reply was : But what's yours to her? This question left me speechless. I didn't have the answer to that. Well, i certainly do now, though your value remains the same. Another question that shocked me was : You kept saying that she's not ready, but imagine if you truly love this person, you'll be ready whenever and wherever. Well, i just tried turned a blind ear to his remark, and not let his remark affect me. However, the moment i heard the cold hard truth, my mind wouldn't stop torturing me with despair :  Even the small kid is better than you, she can live her life without you, you and her no longer share any secret, you don't even know who she's talking about on her blog, there's nothing about her that's Zavier-exclusive anymore... Well, recently i heard you're going back to HMD, have fun working there and i'll cya in a year.... if we still matter to us that is...